The word "obedience" comes from the Latin word ob-audire, which means to listen with great attentiveness. Without listening we become deaf to the voice of love. The Latin word for deaf is surdus. To be completely deaf is to be absurdus, yes, absurd.
When we no longer pray, no longer listen to the voice of love that speaks to us in the moment, our lives become absurd lives in which we are thrown back and forth between the past and the future.
Henri Nouwen